Wednesday, July 1, 2015

and i still whisper thank you...

today is the first day of the second half of 2015.

we all start the new year with high hopes.  the mystery is...   you never know what will be in store.
this has been a very difficult half year.  i am a pretty upbeat person.  i like to think i am a half full kind of person but this year so far has been met with a lot of challenge.  i know this is part of life. part of growing up and knowing that with love comes heartbreak, with change comes challenge, and with death comes birth again.  sometimes you just get really tired.  sometimes you just get really sad. i bet if i went through the calendar all the days would equal out, there would be as many happy days as hard ones.  but some times the hard days feel so heavy.   there is so much beauty still -  and although i know this to be true you can still feel not so great. right now so many of my friends are really in the trenches. some of us have lost parents this year, or siblings, or children. some of them are fighting for their life some are going through divorce, or preparing to say goodbye to a friend, or trying to find the right nursing care for an elderly parent and so many other life altering things.

i know hardship can take us away from joy but i also know that it also brings us closer to love.

when i look around at my friends and all that we have gone and will go through i see things i couldn't have imagined. life brings us so much unpredictability. but i do see one thing - when we are in this transition time life seems to slow down, it feels weighted and long, but the learning speeds up.
we are forced to see what really matters, who really matters. make the emptiness a container for intense growth.
in times of transition it's normal to feel defeated so it's important to choose wisely. spend time with people you adore, surround yourself with optimistic people, people who really care about your well being.
i see my closest friends and their faces have been softened by tears and tiredness. we are far better to each other for what we have all been through.

 i feel so blessed to have this kind of friendship.

love sent, xo

Friday, June 19, 2015

Happy Father's Day!

frozen in this lens of time  - i miss you in this heart of mine ..
so many wonderful memories...

happy father's day to all the amazing dads out there.

love sent, xoxo

Sunday, June 14, 2015

summer vibes...

it's been so long...
i'm trying to get back into the groove.  let's start with a recipe.  this was fantastic and will definitely stay in the summer rotation.

    Dill & Garlic Dressing:
  • 1/2 cup olive oil
  • 1/4 cup red wine vinegar
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons sugar
  • 1 clove garlic, minced
  • 1 tablespoon fresh dill, minced
  • 1 teaspoon dried oregano
  • 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • Freshly ground black pepper, to taste
  • Salad:
  • 1 pound tomatoes (cherry or grape tomatoes, cut in half, or about 3 large tomatoes, seeded & chopped)
  • 1 pound cucumbers (approximately 2 large or 4 small), diced
  • 1/2 cup Kalamata olives, drained, pitted, & chopped
  • 1/2 cup feta cheese, crumbled
  • 2 tablespoons fresh dill, for garnish
    For the dressing:
  1. In a medium bowl, whisk together all dressing ingredients until thoroughly blended. Alternatively, you may place ingredients in a jar, tighten the lid, and shake until incorporated.
  2. For the salad:
  3. In a large bowl, combine all salad ingredients. Toss with dressing until everything is evenly coated.
  4. Cover salad and refrigerate for at least 4 hours, removing from the refrigerator at least 30 minutes before serving. Drain off any excess dressing and garnish with dill, if desired.
and dessert...

love sent, x0
hope everyone had a nice weekend.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

sunday night...

sorry to say i am happy to see may come to an end.
this has sadly been a month of heartache.
here's to june.  wishing for a month of healing and cocktails in the country side, starting next weekend. i can hardly wait.

there are moments in life you treasure a bit extra.
moments that bring extra happiness.
goose bump moments.
wishing you some goose bump moments this coming week.

love these kids to the moon and back.  xoxo

love sent, xoxo

RIP Daisy...

The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle cannot be won.
You will be sad, I understand;
Don't let your grief then stay your hand.
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.
We've had so many happy years -
What is to come can hold no fears.
You'd not want me to suffer so;
The time has come, so let me go.
Take me where my needs they'll tend
And please stay with me until the end.
Hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time that you will see
The kindness that you did for me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.
Please do not grieve - it must be you
Who had this painful thing to do.
We've been so close, we two, these years -
Don't let your heart hold back its tears.

Her first day with us..  such a baby.

Growing up together

Saying goodbye...

Our hearts are broken... Sleep well, run free.  xoxo

Monday, May 25, 2015

communicating love...

i feel grateful for this family and all the unanswered prayers they represent.
tonight we talked and laughed and ate roasted corn and drank rose under the stars.
i can be drowning in grief and then i look around and remember how much i have still.
how very blessed i am. i remember you don't get that many opportunities to share this
kind of  closeness. everything feels different but i am so lucky to have this moment.
usually when there seems to be more bad news than good i gather the ones i love around me
and that changes everything.  everything stops in these moments and i can see all the world is full of beauty.  thanks to my amazing family and all the tenderness they radiate.

love sent, xoxo

Friday, May 22, 2015

there is always beauty...

i am forcing myself forward but everything in me feels like it wants to go back to the past.
my heart is gripping the edge of change, worried about the future.  will my mom be ok? will we all feel peace eventually?  did we do enough?
you think you know how you might feel but knowing loss in your mind isn't the same as feeling such a loss in your heart.
there is more than one path toward healing and no right way to recover or to grieve. 
i think this weekend will be filled with food, books and flowers. things that fill my soul.

this sweet image graced my front yard this morning reminding me that life goes on.

wishing you all a peaceful weekend..

love sent, xo