change...

i am not good at change. i like to keep everything i love close by. would i trade this time to have avoided this change? never. but knowing our day to day contact is ending makes my heart heavy. for 8 years i have gotten to share in your boundless energy, every. single. day. from my first week here in the office when you showed up announcing that you were down the hall and available to help with whatever might be needed. little did i know then how much you meant that, and how many times i would call on you to get me through one of "those" days. whether  a personal challenge or a work challenge you were there steadfast,  always. i will miss my daily IM's that pop up on my screen to say good morning, how are you? hope you enjoyed your weekend "my friend". flashes of our time together pelt me today, our joyful days, our tearful days, our celebratory days. all those days that made our friendship what it is today. some days trials stacked up on each other but knowing you were down the hall was always such a comfort. we sit across from each other and tell stories to each other and that's what makes our challenges lighter. i know that light comes from the very things we desire to flee. we grow when the walls press in, we grow when life steals our control and we grow in the darkness. we have become settled here, it has become a secure place. but change is needed to transform our thinking, and ahead there is freedom for a new adventure, one that i am sure you are ready for.   i'm just not ready. i will miss our day to dayness more than you know,  but i know for certain i am better because of you.            i'll miss you so much patti.

i hold on to my little paper that states  "when it rains on your parade look up rather than down without the rain there would be no rainbows."
wishing you all the best life has to offer.

sending lots of love and hugs.  xo