every life has many stories...

the light turns richer and softer as the years pass. there are currents of feelings that run through all of us. there are the stories of people whole and flawed and full of love. the path they walked together as the world turns forward. "some waves die sideways and silent, miles from shore. not every wave gets to reach it's peak and high five the beach in celebration" (Steve Gamlin) but that doesn't make the wave any less powerful. days seem to accelerate each year but nostalgia can pull me in like an under tow. because of my emotional wiring all my experiences are tremendously rich but also bittersweet.

 


"some love stories aren't epic novels, some are short stories. but, that doesn't make them any less filled with love."


love sent, xo

loving this...

to my friend tim because i know how much he loves little girls and he knows how fast they grow up. xo

dream big...

“When it appears as if your dream is on hold or delayed, it is quite tempting to trade-off your dream and downsize it in favor of something more “realistic”. If it really is the dream of your heart it will not be silent when you attempt to mute its voice. It will demand of you to fight the good fight and be intentional about changing your outlook, regaining your intended vision for the future. Take courage! The dream lives!”
-Dr. Mark Chironna

love sent, xxoo

on the cusp of change...

last night i had dinner with some friends.  we talked about families and the threads that hold people together. 
hugs were exchanged and we shared the progress of the past many months.  everyone has a story, a journey that all of us make through the years.  some years are easier than others.  there is plenty of struggle but also

ample beauty.  there will be storm clouds, bright sun, coming together, and falling apart.  some times we have to let go of what we thought it was going to be to embrace an uncertain future.  a new life whose contours are unfamiliar can be hard -  but also very rewarding.   sometimes we have to clear out what was beginning to fade to make room for something not yet in view.  respect your past but look forward to the future.   make new traditions, new dynamics, make room for each other - all the differences and all the silmilarities.  that is what makes a family.  some families are born and others are blended.  some by blood others by magic.  everything is connected. 

love sent, xo

time to usher in fall...

this weekend we bid a fond farewell to long summer days and dinners outside. 
one last summer fling.

friends at our house.

drained wine glasses.

raucous laughter.

homemade pizza.

open windows.

clean sheets.

a visit to keene.

pumpkin patches.

hugs.

and more hugs.

my favorite restaurant.

apple pancakes.

lots of cooking.

family time.

baby snuggles.
apple cider.

love sent, xo

demi lovato...

simple thoughts...

sometimes my heart feels as if it's in a vice, this beautiful pain that i never knew existed before children.  all-emcompassing unconditional soul-filling love.  i have had children for a very long time now but it never ceases to amaze me how when they suffer i suffer too.
the past few days have been hard.  first, i should preface this by making sure everyone knows this is no
life threatening illness or tragedy.  it is however, about disappointment.  disappointment is all part of  day to day life.  sometimes life is unfair.  it's as simple as that.   but, when you know how hard someone has worked for something and it doesn't work out  - well, it hurts. big. painful. hurt.  but i believe (i have to) that this is a temporary stepping stone to something much better.  a time to clear out what just wasn't meant to be for something not yet visable. 

oh how sometimes i wish i could return to the days of sloppy kisses, hugged knees, dirty floors, and sand in the bottom of the bath tub.  a simpler time when hurt could be fixed with an ice cream.

love you to the moon and back,
xo