JOY...

"...it will shine in your eyes and in your look, in your conversation and in your countenance. you will not be able to hide it because joy overflows. joy must be one of the pivots of our life. it is the token of a generous personality. sometimes it is also a mantle that clothes a life of sacrifice and self-giving. a person who has this gift often reaches high summits. he or she is like a sun in a community."  ~Mother Teresa

i know people like this..... don't you?   i aspire to this. i would especially like to believe i am joyful.

but i have to admit that sometimes...today, for instance--i'm not a sun, i'm a snowcloud. a bowl of cold oatmeal. a brittle fall leaf. rather than overflowing, my joy congeals in wobbly puddles at the bottom of my heart. telling me to be joyful just mires my feet in guilt. you know how it is sometimes you have to lean on hope.

tomorrow will be better, as i used to whisper in the ears of my young ones at the end of hard days. tomorrow will be better.
i miss you dad.

love sent,