Saturday, February 20, 2010

a soft place to land....

sometimes life is hard...   i have been thinking about some of the events that have  transpired over the last few days/weeks.  sometimes life is complicated.  m is home now, i missed her so, we had dinner tonight and we laughed, and we talked and we hugged.  she is a love.  i guess i know one thing for certain there is nothing like a mothers love - nothing.  no matter how the chapters of your life unfold  a mother/child relationship always remains - always. that is to say that i feel like we are solid and forever and she feels like we are solid and forever -  when e, a, and m came into my life - there was a significant shift in who i was. my love multiplied.   no matter what happened  they will always be part of me. if they lived. if i died. we will always be connected... and i am honored times a million. they will always be those three complete and perfect miracles that changed my life - no matter what happened or what they did or what I did or what transpired in the pages of our stories. our bond is permanent and it always will be - on family trees and legal documents and memories and fibers and stamps of time - and within me forever.  they belong to me.  2 of my children are adults now and one is close to becoming one.  it's so hard to believe so much time has past, so many amazing moments have been captured. hold the moments in your hand because they are fleeting.
seems to me that our lives are like a fabric with distinctive layers, ones  that are joined together. the seams created by wounds can in fact become our greatest places of strength.  i like living between the distinctive layers of my life.  xoxo

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

They sound like three remarkable and wonderful children. The love that flows through us from our children can get us through our struggles on good and tough days. You are a very lucky person to have them in your life.

Anonymous said...

I am a single mom too. My children's love is my source of strength which gets me through my complicated days. Having a true and honest relationship with my children enhances that special and unique bond we have between mother and child. I will hold on to those amazing moments past and those to come. Thank you.